Hello my friends,
It’s been a while since I have posted on the blog, I hope this post finds you well. I have to admit that my moods have been up and down. I thought I would share some of my struggles and my emotional rollercoaster during this time. There is no right or wrong way on how we are dealing with life right now, everyone’s decision on what they do is what is right for them and their family.
In the beginning of all this, (back in March & beginning of April) I thought I was ok, but as we got more into April, l realized I was a mess. Consuming way too much news and social media regarding Covid-19. It was affecting my mental health, having a hard time sleeping, and not wanting to do much other then what needed to be done for my family. Anyone else go thru it? I do suffer from Anxiety, which I believe made it easy for me to fall in this hole. I know there are much worse types of Anxiety out there, but just sharing mine. It felt that once Covid hit, so much more happened in our world that is very emotional changeling, we also became aware of so much more, and wanting to learn about it all. That can take a toll on our mental health, so much devastating news on top of a Global Pandemic.
Once I realized how this was really affecting me, I decided to limit all news (social media & tv) to once a day, usually being around later in the mornings or late afternoon. I started filling up my day with things that took up my time and made me tired so I could get some kind of back to normal sleep. Yup, I started deep cleaning areas that I never had time for, organizing, and looking for new recipes, etc.. on top of trying to keep the kids entertained safe at home. It took a few days, but it worked and just getting more sleep helped a whole lot. Once that came into place I was able to come up with a new routine and planning more fun things we could do at home and in our neighbourhood. Now, being honest here, we don’t always follow our routine or go by it 100%, but it did help with getting some normal back into our lives. I also experience days were I have it all together and do not feel the impact and then all of a sudden I am not on my game anymore and have those blah day(s) and that’s ok. It’s ok to slow down and let our bodies feel all emotions, get it all out and then get back up again.
In realizing that I was not the same person and losing interest in all regular things made me not want to continue in that path. I was feeling miserable no matter what I did. I knew I needed to take control before I couldn’t or get too lost in it where the problem controls you. Don’t get me wrong, everything isn’t great and smooth sailing everyday, but it has improved so much. It was a lot to handle and it was completely normal to go thru these feelings and moods. I do have these nights every so often where I am so tired but can’t sleep, of course with everything happening in the world, not just with Covid-19, also the unknown of things at times, it is completely normal for that to happen. That fog brain feeling was the worst, couldn’t focus on things, feeling drained, etc… I am glad that I was able to make it happen less. I say less because yes it does happen here and there but at least it wasn’t going on for many days and very often. Did you get fog brain?
Just in case you think I have it all together, I am here to share I don’t. Some days are great and we go with the routine, other days are just go with the flow. I am totally off my blog content game. When I launched this year, I had so many great ideas, events, and content, and was all in. Then Covid hit and everything was put on hold. I had to work, be a teacher, and everything else. It was a lot and I had to slow down on something. From all this I have learned it’s ok to fall off the line and that we are all in this together. It’s ok to think of the unknown, but to not let it consume my day. Many people that I have come in contacted with on Instagram dm’s or in person are going thru similar up and downs. This is a time for us to deal with each situation as best we can and allow us to step back too. We can plan our days, but we need to know it’s ok if the day doesn’t go as planned or if we end up doing nothing at all. We also need to support each other’s ways or the path others are taking. Everyone is dealing with this the best way they know how and no one’s ways are the same, each family knows what is best for them and their families.
As I wrap this up, I would like you to know if you need to talk to someone I am here. Please feel free to reach out to me by contacting me at firstname.lastname@example.org
We are all in this together and we will all make it out together.
Be kind to everyone, you never know what battle they are struggling with.
If you would like to share how this difficult time has been effecting you, or would like to share fun ideas to do during this time I would love to hear them, comment below.